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想通了,但還是放不開...難道我還是被這性格所累... 為何我總放不開,是我太執著還是我的心不夠狠
明明我的康莊大道就在前方,為何我還抄小路?難道我真的想得不夠徹底... 天阿...別再磨練我了... 快讓我離開這監牢吧....囚禁我24年還不夠??? 非得囚滿25年??? 真的好想放開一切....我累了,真的很累... 逃了那麼就真的累了...可是就沒有一個讓我停下的理由???

monday blues

monday , noon time.... waiting fer someone to wake up... well... 2day 31st may.... come to tink of it.... i haf broke off wif lynn fer 8mths and 16 days... in tis period of time... d 1st 3 mths is hell fer mi... lost everything, and i realli mean everything, my will to live, my joy,my hope, my onli support tat can lean on.... but after tat i tink i recovered well... start to rediscover my will, my hope and my true path to life... guess i been 2 imprisoned in my immatured thoughts... kinda refuse to move on, refuse to accept facts...
8mths down the road, she is plainly my fren , maybe a close fren... but 3 mths more is when my studies start from then on.. it is gonna b the deciding period of my future... onli thing is tat i can't fail tis time.. tis will b my last and only chance...
loving someone is pain when u dunno how... when u tot it through... it can b so simple... the diffrence is where and how u take ur stand... guess tat will become an asset to me in times^^
well.... still waiting fer tat someone to wakes up... just end my blabbering here fer now....

just the start of another day

d day haf just started, but kinda in mood to write buddha scripts
life it self is the biggest irony, nothing is destined to change, yet nothing is destined not to changed, 1 moment tis may b the right way,another moment, it just gone harewired.... when u already heading to the deepest shit when u thought it's d end, yet the shit just got deeper....
i always told myself yo b control of my life, yet i always controled by others... as always i noe goin 1 way is dead end,i will still move on and get myself bumped becos i just got 2 naive thinking the wall is just illusioanary , it will disappear as i get nearer
i always hear voices say, y not u just finish off ur life here, but neither do i haf the courage to do it nor i haf the desire to b so... i love the way i am , yet i hate myself fer the way i am... i enjoyed the process, but always tripped by the outcome
i always tink i am the greatest, i always want to portrayed a strong but ended up i am the weakest , the shyest and the most useless of all, sad but true
guess i can still haf tonnes to write.... but tat's it fer now.... carry on nex time on my prison's tok

1st post.. but such an untimely 1

let's c..... tis is my 1st post... normally shld haf all those happy stuff to write on.... guess mi no such mood 2day.... oh well.... guess the 1st posting ends here